chrisruzin.net :: Goodbye To My 30s (October 6, 2014)

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Goodbye To My 30s

I do this every time I’m about to leave a decade of life behind. When I was hours away from turning 20 I was in a campground lodge in Hawaii getting very sad that I was no longer going to be a teenager. I felt like I was leaving behind my childhood, and in a sense I was.

When I was hours away from turning 30, I was in the sticks in Arkansas wondering what the hell I was doing with my life, and worried I would waste my life away if I didn’t get out of there. I had made so many great memories, traveled to so many awesome places and met tons of interesting people in my 20s. I was worried that there was no way my 30s could possibly measure up, but I was hopeful that they would be great.

Now that I’m less than an hour from turning 40, I’m in Austin again. I am quite happy with how my 30s went despite Mom’s passing, the loss of a set of grandparents, and me still being single. I landed a great job, and moved back to Austin. I’ve met an enormous number of people, and made good friends that have been there for me in good and bad times. I got back into shape, and am in the best shape I’ve ever been in. And Shorty and Tinker have been there through it all - my little companions.

Midway through my 30s, 40 started looming large. It had seemed so far away when Mom and Dad celebrated their 40th birthdays, but now it was creeping up on me. I hated growing older, but a few years ago I found a quote that completely changed my perception of it.

Do not regret growing older. It is a privilege denied to many.
~ Unknown

The last year especially I have begun to greatly appreciate life, no matter what it throws at me. I make sure to stop and enjoy the little things more often. I have a deeper appreciation for my good friends and family. I savor the good moments while they are here, and push through the hard times knowing they always pass.

I just finished watching Six Feet Under today, and it had probably my favorite finale of any show I’ve seen to date. It reinforced my appreciation of life and love “in all its vexing and beautiful forms.” I’m thrilled to be alive, and appreciate every moment I’m given. I’m no longer dreading my 40s, I’m looking forward to what they will bring.

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